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Monday, January 23, 2017

Ode to Chick-fil-A



Ode to Chick-fil-A
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One time I went to Chick-fil-A after a Long Day and This is Why
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Never Mind, Go With the First Title

It was about two years ago. It had been a long day. I had three children at the time: my baby girl - still small enough to be carted around in a baby-carrier, my little boy – a toddler, and my oldest daughter who was the no-longer-a-toddler-not-quite-a-big-kid-thinks-they-are-actually-the-mommy-child. It was their well-child check-up. Yes, I had scheduled all three appointments to take place at the same time in a three birds with one stone effort, whereas the birds are actually children and whereas I had no intention of throwing stones at them - not on that occasion, at least.  In my usual fashion, I arrived to the doctor’s office barely on time and we sat in the waiting room for much too long before finally being called back to see the doctor.  I was then asked a few invasive questions (Are there any smokers in your home? Is there any abuse? Does everyone wear a seatbelt? What’s your favorite color? Do you want WIC? – No, no, heck yes, green and no) and left alone in the cramped office with the promise that the doctor will be in in a few minutes, which is code for “get comfy, it will be a while.”

Eventually the doctor did come in and after shining his fancy light in my children’s ears, mouths, and nostrils, reminded me, in a tone that said “are you TRYING to kill your children,” that I was behind on vaccinations.  He proceeded to poke each of my children with a sterile syringe (full of anti-death syrup, apparently) in an attempt to make up for what I had carelessly, and probably selfishly, neglected. Let’s add this to my ever growing list of failures - right next to “Allows Children to Consume Artificially Colored and Flavored Gummy Snacks…While Listening to Non-Educational Music…In the Car…On the Way to McDonalds.” But hey, at least they are securely fastened into their weight-appropriate car seats. 

Fast forward twenty minutes and I am toting my now sore, cranky, hungry and antsy children out of the doctor’s office, and piling them back into the car along with a diaper bag, my purse, a few thousand papers and pamphlets on the importance of TIMELY vaccinations, a couple of loose toys and children’s books, and a small blanket - because, heaven-forbid that little old lady sees my baby’s feet , one of which is missing a sock, (probably now located in the toilet paper aisle at Wal-Mart) and makes a comment on what shade of purple/blue/orange and/or fuchsia those little piggies are and proceeds to “bless my poor heart” because that baby is cold. Thank you little old ladies of the world, I love you, but sometimes, a foot just loses a sock. So out we marched to our car. I made the buckles go *click,* passed out the toys and books back to their owners, and dug the pacifier out from under my baby’s bottom - dropping it on the floor of my car in the process -  and popped it into her mouth (don’t worry I licked off all the germs first, so that if infected with a horrible disease, I would subject myself to the same disease as retribution for not unbuckling, untucking, and unloading in search of boiling water). Finally, after looking through every pants, diaper bag, and purse pocket for the keys that my two-year-old had been playing with the whole time, and starting the car - which was still blaring Taylor Swift out of the speakers, I left. And I never looked back… until four to eight weeks later when I had to come back for more vaccinations – I’m not a monster. 

In the car, my children were fidgety, they were hungry and they were cranky, all of which was understandable. I was tired from all the waiting. I was hungry. And yes, I was cranky. We all needed a break. After all, apart from the occasional complaint or groan, my kids had been troopers through the whole ordeal and they deserved a small reward and I needed some carbs. So fast food it was. I thought about where we should go, what food sounded good and what I could afford with that twenty dollar bill I happened to have in my ever-empty wallet.  It didn’t take long to decide where I would go, however. I knew exactly what I needed…yup, I said needed. At that moment I needed Chick-fil-A…for one small, yet GINORMOUS reason. Did I love their crunchy chicken? Of course, but that wasn’t the reason. Did they have one of the few indoor play areas that didn’t smell like diaper and sadness? Yes, but that wasn’t the reason. Would I be able to fill several rumbly tummies with my twenty dollar budget? One chicken cobb salad, large fry, and two six piece chicken nuggets, two waters ("the baby will have the diaper-bag-milk that I’m pretty sure leaked on the extra onesie tucked beside it, and the mostly-not-stale cheerios I forgot were in there, thank you very much"), and a small coke – “that will be eighteen dollars and some change…and YES it IS my pleasure.” Budget friendly? Yes, but that is STILL not the reason, the ONE reason that I chose this particular fast food establishment. Not to hate on any other food chains. I have been to a few *cough, cough… maybe more than a few…cough, cough* with no horrible Yelp reviews resulting from my visit. But there is one reason I chose to go to Chick-fil-A over the rest - the build-up is exciting/tiring, is it not? - I picked Chick-Fil-A because I knew that after I unloaded the kids, diaper bag, purse, blanket, toys and books, that someone would be at the entrance to open the door for me. That’s it. That’s the truth. I knew that after the tiring day I had had, after feeling guilty for putting off a doctor’s visit, after watching my kiddos tear up from the pinch of a needle and waiting, so much waiting, I at least could go somewhere where someone would be waiting for me…at the door…to open it. Open wide enough for all my junk and all my kids and that it was their “pleasure” to do so. Because moms, as you have heard time after time from the strangers in the neighboring checkout line, “you sure do have your hands full.” And sometimes all you need, really, is for someone to open the door.  And a little Chick-fil-A sauce doesn’t hurt either.

Oh, and I am STILL behind on vaccinations.

Monday, August 12, 2013

Noisemakers

Outside my window is yet another cloudy, wet day. This week my sisters and brother-in-law have been here to visit and spend time with the kids. The whole week has been cloudy and wet. Which means my kids have been marooned inside. They have been running around, singing songs, telling 'stories' watching their favorite cartoons, listening to music, playing games, reading books and drawing pictures. Needless to say we have had a very noisy house. Having three extra sets of helping hands to play, change diapers, entertain, pamper, and soothe was more than helpful for me and my kids. Still their energy shouldn't be contained to 1900sq feet.

Silence has always been rare and seems almost foreign in our home, but this week, we have hit a new record - 'most lively.' Yet, even at this very moment - while I am writing this sentence and my children are circling me, squealing at one another, I can't help but ache for those whose homes are still, whose house is perfectly organized and silence is far from 'golden.'

While sometimes overwhelming, I cherish my tiny bundles of chaos and mischief. On those days when I can't even hear my own thoughts, I remember that some day there will be peace and quiet, someday they will say their goodbyes and leave me with time all to myself - my thoughts can wait - I will hear them all too clearly in 20 years or so...

...for now, I love the noise.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

My God is an Ocean


 
An Original ‘Metaphor’ Poem by Elizabeth Lancaster

My God is like an ocean.
Build your house near him
And be prepared for the flood
That sweeps over you
With force and power.

It destroys those with no firm foundation,
Clears lands and challenges life.
Currents that can sweep away or lift up.

Be refreshed by the coolness of its waters.
Wait for the treasures its high tide leaves behind.
 
Lie beside on its sandy beaches and listen to the noise it makes.
Sometimes loud and crashing like symbols on the shore,
Sometimes soft with waves,
Sometimes silent;
The voice of the deep, wide, ocean.

None can deny its saltiness.
It stings those with broken flesh.
It is breath for those who live within its watery walls.

And those who have seen it will never forget,
My God is an ocean.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

My Mother's Heart

An Original Formal ‘Pantoum’ Poem by Elizabeth Lancaster

Inside each of us is a beating heart.
It keeps us alive when we wish to survive.
My heart beats because hers beat first,
Pounding with love for a child within.

It keeps us alive when we wish to survive.
As mine is made of silver, hers is gold,
Pounding with love for a child within.
A child who will always be there, sealed in her heart.

As mine is made of silver, hers is gold;
Luster that never dulls, but only brightens with each new memory of
A child who will always be there, sealed in her heart.
It’s pitter-patter quickens with sounds of laughter and singing.

Luster that never dulls, but only brightens with each new memory of
Tiny shoes, toothless grins, peanut butter and jelly and a full pew on Sunday mornings.
It’s pitter-patter quickens with sounds of laughter and singing.
To know my mother’s heart is to know love and sweet Amazing Grace.

Tiny shoes, toothless grins, peanut butter and jelly and a full pew on Sunday mornings;
Experiences she shares with each new generation.
To know my mother’s heart is to know love and sweet Amazing Grace.
My heart, the hearts of my children – beat, because hers beat first.

 

Monday, April 29, 2013

Eye of the Beholder


I took a brief pause in posting my poems so I thought I would pick up where I left off.
 
This poem is different in that the content was taken from random words that popped out at me from different magazine articles. My assignment was to randomly cut out words without thinking about how they would fit into my poem before it was written. This is why it is called a 'cut-up' poem.
 
Eye of the Beholder
A ‘Cut-Up’ Poem by Elizabeth Lancaster

“Tick-Tock”
 
Beauty in a bottle leaks
Creeping through open cracks
Falling
Like a strange, slow snow
 
Sprinkled in the shadows
By a giant hurricane…a gift

“Tick-Tock”

Eyes peer - lingering in those shadows
In the safety of the shadows
In the beauty of the shadows

“Behold the Beauty,
Brilliant Eyes!”

What are eyes made of, that they should see this gift?
The gift of beauty
The beauty in the pockets of the shadows.

“Tick-Tock”

Depressed eyes look, but do not see
Like chopsticks grasping at Chamomile tea
They beg their lids “open, please” – they refuse

“Behold the Beauty,
Bulging Eyes!”

Tick-tock goes the clock
The clock is their enemy
Like a rock they do not move

The beauty will fade
They will not see

The beauty inspired by the shadows
 
Their only hope – the timer
The timer, broken.

 

Friday, April 19, 2013

If She Only Knew

...If only my daughter knew how much I love her, She would appreciate what I gave her. She would love whatever I create as much as I love her little creations. She would be proud that I am her parent. She would look up to me and show me respect. She would know how much I want to spend time with her and how much joy I get from her being 100% herself. She wouldn't be embarrassed to sing, dance, pretend or be goofy when she knew I was watching. She would listen to me when I said 'stop' and run when I said 'go.' Were I to punish her, she would feel remorse, because she would know how badly it hurt me. She would know how beautiful she is to me. She would understand how sad it makes me when other kids don't want to be her friend or don't treat her as the worthy little girl she is. She would always be good, tell me everything, do anything to make me smile and know I would do anything to make her smile. She would always say 'please' and 'thank you.' She wouldn't be frightened when I am near her and run to me first if we were far apart. If my daughter knew how much I love her she would climb into my arms and let me hug her tight and smother her with kisses and she would know in that moment that there is nothing else she could give me that could make me love her more.

Romans 8:37-39; I John 3:1 - At times I remember God is a parent too and I can be quite an unruly child. How many times has he wondered...if only she knew how much I loved her.

I should go put myself in time-out...

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

To Know Them Well



A ‘Formal (Villanelle)’ Poem by Elizabeth Lancaster

And slowly they grow
Giving heart, soul, your very best
A child you will come to know

Moral compass inside them stow
Hastily, hurriedly, impatiently invest
And slowly they grow

Kneading a life, like a soft, rising dough
Point them east – they’ll go west
A child you will come to know

Hear opportunity, in their ear, whispers “hello”
While you wait to rest,
And slowly they grow

Against all odds, the spinning world and circling crows
Look away! They fall from the nest
A child you will come to know

And onward they go
And limits they test
And slowly they grow
A child you will come to know